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Friends, maybe I'm alone here, but I'm just going to say it: PGL sucks. It's not fun. Sure there are fun MOMENTS - but god damn, it isn't the same.
As you know by now - if you've been paying attention, that is - I had a rough summer. I was lonely, down, and just wasn't myself. I missed my friends. I missed constantly being busy. I missed little things like baking cookies with my roommate on cold nights. I had a bad, bad case of the PGL Blues.
What are the PGL Blues, you may ask? Well, I have a theory. I think most people I know who graduated in May have experienced/are experiencing the PGL Blues - this feeling of loss and sadness for our time in college and uncertainty of where to go from here. This pressure to live up to expectations, or keep up appearances. This constant feeling like everyone around us is somehow doing BETTER than we are.
Newsflash: they aren’t. At least from what I can tell, we all miss being in college. Even if we don’t miss it entirely, there are aspects that we may miss – having full social lives, friends within walking distance…I know, I sound like a broken record.
The PGL Blues are tough. For me, I felt like I was trapped in a dark tunnel with no bright end in sight. The only times I would feel better were when I was surrounded with my friends or keeping busy. But the minute I would go home, I would feel ten times worse. It was like a crushing weight of loss and loneliness was consuming me every day.
Right now, grad school keeps me busy – so I’m not as blue. But when I talk to my friends, I can relate exactly to how they are feeling.
Right now, we are all in a MASSIVE transition – new jobs, new places to live, new relationships, new friendships – the list goes on. Our lives are changing. It makes sense that we feel a little off.
For a lot of my friends, this week was really hard. Realities are starting to set in, student loan payments are started to spring up…. It sorta feels like the beginning of the end. To cope, Allie and I ordered ourselves a lot of fried ice cream, veggie lo-mein, and chicken teriyaki (feel free to sponsor us Yamato and Asia Grille). Sometimes, to feel like yourself, you just need some good laughs and good food (and a few psychotic breaks).
Moral of the story: we are all in the same boat (most of us are just trying to figure out how to paddle). Don’t let the Instagrams or progress pics fool you – we’re all in the same position, just trying to figure out how to PGL.
So, this week is dedicated to everyone out there experiencing the PGL Blues. Do something fun this weekend. Veggie lo-mein solves all problems.
Until next time,