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It’s Friday and you know what that means – you get to hear from me again!
Do you ever have so many thoughts buzzing around your head that you don’t even know where to start? That’s a pretty good assessment of me this week. If you know me even a little bit, you know I never stop. I tend to run from place to place with a full to-do list clutched in my hand.
One unexpected thing that has come from PGL (Post Grad Life) is the concept of free time. At Bryant, I had a full course schedule, work, sorority obligations, and a laundry list of assignments that grew as the semester wore on.
At home, my life is the complete opposite. I spent my Labor Day weekend in my pajamas, binge watching Gossip Girl (I know, I am about ten years late to the trend), and helping my little sister fill out college applications (serious FOMO – can I be a freshman again please??).
I should point out that I am still somewhat experiencing what my generation calls “funemployment.”
Last week, I talked all about how hard my life has been since graduation day on May 20th. But I left out some pretty cool positives. In May, I was offered a promotion to be a Department Head and Executive Director at my local cable station. Super cool opportunity, way over my head. I accepted the position and started the same week that I started my first ever graduate summer course – huge mistake. Ask any of my classmates, I was a walking mental break down. I was stretched way too thin – commuting from Massachusetts to Rhode Island, trying to cram in my assignments during down time at work, trying to figure out a capital plan for Fiscal Year 2019 (I was a communication major for god’s sakes!); it was a mess. Ultimately, I stepped down from the position and eventually left my job to focus on my studies.
(What??? You quit your job???)
Yeah, I know. Almost $50,000 in student loans and here I am LEAVING a job that could not only pay my loans, but help me live comfortably as long as I wanted. Call me crazy, but I chose to pursue my Master’s Degree (and live at home for what feels like eternity), without the added obligation of working 9-5.
This is NOT one of those posts that you see on the internet encouraging you to quit your job. Actually, DON’T quit your job – you will end up in your pajamas watching 5+ episodes of Gossip Girl a day (not too bad until you start speaking in Blair Waldorf tones). But what I am trying to say is focus on you. At the beginning of the summer, I was so focused on doing what I thought I was supposed to do:
Get your Master’s – you will double your future salaries
Get work experience – it will help strengthen your resume
Live at home (but still socialize/go on vacation/see your friends) – you will save money but still feel connected
Whatever it is, we all have certain expectations we feel like we need to live up to. I put way too much on my plate – and I didn’t realize it until one day I was so stressed out after hanging up from a phone call with my boss that I wrapped my BMW around a telephone pole.
Take time for you – do what’s best for you, not what others think may be the best for you.
I have come to accept my fate as a Super Senior. On Monday, I am heading back to Bryant to work towards finishing my Master’s Degree. Most people who know me know that I’m a pretty big nerd – I love school. Part of the reason why I was so sad to graduate was that I was sad to be trading in a classroom for a cubicle. So as much as I may complain about being unemployed, or having to commute to Rhode Island almost every day – I really am excited to be a Super Senior Bulldog.
Last week, I got the nicest responses about my Icebreakers post (which you can check out here if you missed it last week). I want to take this space to say thank you thank you thank you to anyone who reached out and encouraged me to keep writing. People I barely knew had the nicest responses to my quick introduction post, and it definitely made my heart feel a little fuller. People from all over the world checked out what I had to say, and that was a really empowering feeling.
I’m not really sure what my goal for this post was – I had no poetic wisdom to share about leaves changing colors. But what I do know is that it made me feel better writing it. And that’s the whole point of this space – take it or leave it (:
I can’t lie – I started writing this last Saturday. After posting last week, I felt so much better. I have said it before, but I truly do not care if one person or one hundred people read my posts – they are meant for me. This space is designed to give me a place to process my life PG (post-graduation).
That being said, I encourage anyone who has ever considered blogging to give it a try. In the past, I have tried journaling, keeping a diary, everything – nothing seemed to stick. Blogging is definitely a helpful way to help process the millions of thoughts buzzing around my mind, and I like having the opportunity to share them with you all.
Weekly fun things before I leave you –
One of my really good friends told me to check out Mel Robbins – I am totally not into self-help books, but I think her Instagram account has some gems that really helped put things in perspective for me, so I figured I would share them with you. Hey, if it helped me, maybe it could help you, too. Check out her post about anxiety (something I really struggle with) here.
Another thing – another blogger I follow wrote a really powerful piece on how to “screw the ‘gram.” Forget how many followers or likes you get on your “content.” Like I said, this blog is mostly for me, but her views on social media influencing our self-worth were an interesting read, and helped give me perspective for this piece. Check her out here.
I have also been searching for inspiration for a fun, witty name for this space (the child in me only came up with "A- Bri - C's"). Thoughts/suggestions are always welcome! I also dropped the ball on getting rid of the weebly.com URL - add it to my to do list I guess.
Last, but obviously not least – check out this picture of my dog going for a walk down our street – perfect end to a not so perfect summer.
Next week is Week 1 of Fall Semester back to school; wish me luck!
Until next time --