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Y'all I can't lie. I had a really cool idea for this week's post that I was super pumped to write about. But I completely dropped the ball.
In all fairness to me, I totally bombed a midterm exam this week (this isn't me being a dramatic, I literally got a D on it -- yay grad school!!!), and the next day my adviser told me I am falling so far behind on my thesis that I am no longer on track to graduate in May.
So like, kinda a shitty week.
Don't worry, I promise once my life gets back in order I'll be back on my blogging A-game.
This week, I had a lot of mini-meltdowns. I literally called my sister a raging b*tch for wearing my pajamas to bed. I cried not only once, but twice on the car ride home from class Wednesday night. I am not talking like tearing up either. I was straight up hyperventilating zooming down I-95 praying I wasn't about to drive off the side of the road. This song always makes me cry - and when I heard it come on the radio I knew I should have turned it off because I knew it would make me feel worse. But you know what I did? I turned the volume ALL THE WAY TO THE MAX and just cried and cried and cried. (PS: check out those lyrics -- the greener the grass... I hope you got em all).
Do you ever have weeks where your whole life plan falls apart? Literally that is me this week. It feels like I have been WAITING for my life to start, only to keep getting it pushed back farther and farther.
I guess the grass is always greener when you're hoping/wishing/wanting something different than what you currently have.
This week, my greener grass looks like:
- A full time job, with benefits and vacation time
- NO MORE HOMEWORK
- Not reading 200+ pages per week in graduate communication readings
- Not jumping through hoops to see my friends who I miss very much
What's your greener grass look like? It's funny, maybe to some of you, I have your patch of grass.
HOPEFULLY next week I can resume my weekly ramblings, send prayers and well wishes.
Until next time (hopefully),