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I know I’ve written a blog post on this already, but y’all, I’m seriously losing motivation.
This week was tough. Nothing like monumentally bad happened, per se. It was just one of those weeks where Tuesday feels like it should be Friday, you know?
Last weekend I had a good old fashioned girls weekend in NH, complete with a mimosa brunch and petting lots of puppies. It was good to laugh and catch up and reminisce (why is that word so hard to spell idk) with my friends who have turned into family over the last few years.
And then I came home and the reality of my week set in – hundreds of pages to read for grad class, assignments piling up that I have started avoiding, a diet that I have been severely neglecting and an ever-depleting bank account. Oh, and my thesis project which I have been putting off for MONTHS even though I can’t graduate until it’s done. Oof.
Don’t get me wrong – it wasn’t a BAD week. But I definitely haven’t been feeling 100% myself the last few days (side note I am 100% coming down with something, either a sinus infection or the flu 2.0 so stay tuned for those updates!).
When I’m feeling down, I sit in the shower. Is that gross? Maybe, but I don’t care.
I sit in the shower. And I think and I let the water run down my face and just breathe.
During the day, I have no time to breathe. I am either rushing to class or rushing to get home to go to bed or running late to meet my friends or somehow always ten minutes late for work.
So when I’m feeling down, I take super long showers. And I just sit.
Sometimes I feel like I’m running out of time. Every time I go on social media, I swear someone new is getting engaged, losing a ton of weight, or following their dreams. Sometimes I worry that it’s taking me way too long to get my act together.
But I think that’s okay. Just like it’s okay to have off days and not feel like yourself. And its okay to fall behind, to skip a week at the gym, to put off a few days work of homework in order to take care of yourself.
When I’m feeling down, I need to take the time to SLOW DOWN. RUSHING to life events and milestones will get you nowhere.
Its totally okay to take the time and sit in your shower until you start to feel better.
Until next time,